★ That's the fact that you love me , baby .

I love you, i`m in love with you, & i`m mostly disappointed in you . no one , not even you , will know the level of love i have for you .
it`s ridiculous . i hope that one day i`ll be able to tell you . i know , sometimes with my other friends , i`d be like ' ewww , he`s nasty ! ' but i don`t really think that . i swear to fucking God . i most certainly do not think that at all about you . i know , you see my glances , & everyday i look at you with a smile on my face . i hope you start to feel the same way too , because i do not want to end up confessing , & being rejected . we`ve been friends since maybe 3rd or 4th grade ? & i don`t wanna fuck it up all because i fell in love with you . but don`t be nervous or afraid if you figure it out . i can be all yours & we can live in a fantasy dreamland . you`re one of the many people i`m 100% sure i`d take a bullet for , no doubt . & i really am willing to fall in love with you , even if you find out & reject me . it`s hard for me not to think about you , everyday , i`m sure you fall in love with one new girl . & when i see you heartbroken because of one , it makes me wanna scream . you know , i actually feel like a stupid fuccken idiot when i talk to you , i can literally dream about you , i know your entire schedule . it always makes my day to know sometimes , you`d run to me for help . i don`t care if it has to do with homework , or a relationship . anything , just let me know , & i`ll help you out . i promise you this . when i help you , i swear , it`s the best feeling in the whole . entire . world . okay , i`m sorry , i`m just in too much love with you . trust me , yeah ? i know i talk to alot of people & tell them about how much i hate guys . it`s just that , ugh , you give me butterflies in my stomach . i will never get over it .